Secret #3

I miss you!

But no, let me correct that, I miss the old you.

I remember how it used to be when nothing else matter but you and me..

And i still remember when you said how happy i made you and you really meant it. But now, it's just a phrase you say without even thinking.

I miss the old you that cared about me and the old you that would treat me so well. The old you that would talk to me every day and always have me smiling. I miss the old you that made me happy and knew what to say at any given point in time. I miss the old us.

I miss those days when you'd call just to say hi or "I love you".

The days it was so hard just to say good-bye for a while.

I miss the old you and the old me..

The old us that could just sit and talk for hours and never run out of things to say.

I just.. really miss it.

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I don't blame you for being you. My fault.
Insecure kills me. My bad thought almost kill us.
After all this time, i learned that i need to stop looking for the right person and work on being a right person.
I will do my best, i promise.

just sayin

Isn't she just perfect? Yes, i know.
I'm far from perfect. My good isn't good enough sometimes.
I made a lot of mistake. I'm nothing. Yeah, i know.
I'm sorry i'm not perfect like she is..

DFQ

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Did he give up on me?

Some people say: A men who truly loves you will never let you go, no matter how hard the situation is.

I'm hard to love, i know. I am sensitive and over-react. 
But he said he would never give up on me, never gonna leave me. And now it seems like he just giving up on me. Avoid me. He doesn't make the effort anymore :'(
I really don't know what to do. Will he keep his promises?

Best Day Ever

I reached my 16th, 2 days ago, last Thursday.
So I would have to say today…Umm, well technically yesterday 25th oct 2012…is probably one of the best days of my life so far. Definitely the best birthday ever!!!

It was planned by my closest friends 1ts<3 p="p">They said they will not come to my birthday party.
My tweety had said he wouldn't come too.
It's good enough to breaks me.

But they came, all of them. I was touched and shocked. I swear i loveeeeeee them :*

Not just it, some of my friend give me something. Flour, detergent and eggs smashing at late at night. Lol

I don't know what to say anymore. All i can say is "THANK YOU GUYS".
Thank you so much for throwing the best surprise birthday party eeeeeverrr.

I won't forget this for the rest of my life. I love you sooooo much guysss ...

Getting Closer

It's sunday today. It's not my birthday but it will be my day on Thursday.
Yeah, october 25th is that day i celebrate my birthday. 
Well, i'm getting older! Time goes by so fast. Seems like i just celebrated my 15th birthday. And nowww i almost reach my 16th.

It's not as exciting as when I was 7 and couldn't wait to be 8 and couldn't wait again to be 9 and always like that..

I remember when i'm just a little kid, i always celebrate the day i was born. And i'm totally happy bcause of it. But now? I don't really know how i feel.

I have no idea what I should do for my birthday...I'm not really sure if anything sounds good.
I'm on my busy activity but there will be a party in my home. Whatever gonna happen, i wish i'll be happy on that day..